I wish but I'm not.

I sometimes wish I could be everything that everybody wants/wanted me to be. Okay, maybe not everybody because I know a number of people out there who would want me to be a cadaver, a tampon or a butt plug. But to those that really matter in my life, I wish I could be everything and everyone for them.

I wish I was the son my father wanted.

I wish I were the CEO or successful career woman my mom dreamed me to be.

I wish I were the perfectly beautiful wife my husband deserves.

I wish I were the perfect mom my children need.

I wish I were the kind of friend the five people I call friends, would want me to be.

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I wish I were all of these things but this is who I am and I don't think you can get any more upgrades.

I want you to know that even before you ever thought of being disappointed with me, I already was.