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What are you afraid of?
Almost everyone knows my morbid fear of mascots and clowns. I hate them with a fury. It's not fear per se, I just don't like them and find no use for them. They're not even amusing.
I dislike frogs and toads. They're slimy and cold and toads give you warts.
I dislike crowds. I dislike closed spaces. I hate crowds in closed quarters.
I distrust compliments. I fear I may accept them one day.
I am deathly afraid that I can be more jaded and mistrusting and conflicting that I already am.
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People must think I'm insane. I don't blame them. If I were looking at myself from another POV, I'd say I'm pretty screwed up - like two fries short of a happy meal screwed up. I'd think Fate and Destiny and the Powers That Be must have a sick sense of humor or have majorly fucked up the paperwork when they decided to give me children.
I don't deserve happiness. I don't deserve any positivity. I'm so afraid that one day I'd want them and even believe that I deserve them.
Fear isn't irrational, it's personal. And these fears are mine.
I dislike frogs and toads. They're slimy and cold and toads give you warts.
I dislike crowds. I dislike closed spaces. I hate crowds in closed quarters.
I distrust compliments. I fear I may accept them one day.
I am deathly afraid that I can be more jaded and mistrusting and conflicting that I already am.
***
People must think I'm insane. I don't blame them. If I were looking at myself from another POV, I'd say I'm pretty screwed up - like two fries short of a happy meal screwed up. I'd think Fate and Destiny and the Powers That Be must have a sick sense of humor or have majorly fucked up the paperwork when they decided to give me children.
I don't deserve happiness. I don't deserve any positivity. I'm so afraid that one day I'd want them and even believe that I deserve them.
Fear isn't irrational, it's personal. And these fears are mine.
