Poignant at 10 pm

I've always told people that nothing is ever too lateuntil you say it is...

I have been thinking about what I really want in life. I mean, I want to be this and I want to be that. Realistically speaking, I can't really be a doctor now. Yet, I think about what I can still do.

I mean, there's supposed to be a shelf life to what your career should be, or as everyone says. But I've always told people that nothing is ever too late until you say it is, then it is too late. Why can't we start a career at 34? Most people in the US do that. Some women don't become parents until they're in their late 30's.

In a world where younger meat sells more and earns more... I will never get a leading role ever...

So, why can't I start my entertainment industry career at a ripe young age of 30 something? I think I've become more mature now, more patient (thanks to my kids) and more tolerant to other people's faults. I find some of them even endearing and entertaining.

Although, this is a gamble. In a world where younger meat sells more and earns more, I've become a character staple. I will never get a leading role in a movie nor in a soap. But then, you think about it and realize that even if your (non-existent) boobs sag, you will always have a role somewhere.