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Epiphanies from the bottom of my styrofoam coffee cup

Posted by The Red Devil on Tuesday, September 05, 2006 in , ,
Death seems to loom closer when you get older, well, duh, it's inevitable. Isn't it sad to think that the day we were conceived, the day we were born, was the day that our clock started ticking? We were born to die. Our existence is surmised by the fact that we will die.

Last night, I was watching this film by Pedro Almodovar "Hable con Ella". It was about relationships and love. Love can make you do a lot of stupid things, in fact, what you do in the name of love isn't necessarily normal. What you do for love could make one look like a psychopath, when one thinks that it is just an expression of his/her love.

Anyhoo, the nurse in the film, Benigno Martin, was madly in love with Alicia, his comatose ward. Firstly, there is that question of the possibility of a normal man falling in love with a woman in a vegetative state. Is it possible? Of course, he didn't fall in love with her while she was a vegetable, he fell in love with her before that. However, that love quickly turned into obsession. He wasn't in love anymore, he was obsessed.

But then, at the end of it all, he truly was in love. He was so in love that he can't exist in a world without her, that he can't live in a place where he can't even keep a memento of her - her hairclip. My heart broke and I started to cry.

I couldn't live in a world where I can't be with the man I love. I can't live knowing that he's just there but out of reach. I can't exist without having to touch him, to kiss him and to hold him. I will stop breathing if I can't even keep a small memento of him. I can't be without my husband.

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That's why I think Sasha is such a strong woman. My heart goes out to her.

Be strong Sash, malapit na kayong magkasama.

1 Comments

Anonymous says:

mother,

:(

minsan talaga mother di ko na kaya yung lungkot. iyak ko na lang siya. sobrang hirap talaga. but the One up there has been good to us. i know this sounds cheesy, but our love, and the thought that someday soon, this will all be over and we will be spending the rest of our lives together, has kept us going all this time. he really is the one for me, mother.

i misses u na:( hope to see u soon.

hugs po kay father hen and the kids:)

mother goose

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