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All things new
I decided to change the look of this blog. It's time to adopt the philosophy of Little River Band - time for a cool change.
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I'm having trust issues. I can't seem to trust anyone anymore. (Except hubby, of course) It seems that the people I trust, respect and protect are the same people that betray me - big time. "Why don't you kill me baby? While you smile like a friend..." That line from Pulp's "Like a friend" is sooo true right now. I'm not a big fan of betrayal.
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See, here's my problem: When I trust someone, I trust them completely, as trust is something that you have to give completely without asking for anything in return. I know that by giving that trust, it's not without taking to account the risks that could happen. I've braced myself for that moment of betrayal.
I at least deserve some form of consideration, right? If you're going to break that trust, might as well be upfront about it and just slap my face with it. But that's too much to ask for. The human mind and the emotions that go with it just can't make that happen.
Maybe I'm really expecting too much. Afterall, what is trust but something that is to be thrown away anyway.
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Ironic that I now look back at my showbiz career and appreciate it. At least when they wrote garbage about me in the tabloids, I can always go on a talk show and explain myself. Whatever they thought about me can be changed. Reputations and Credibility was as changing as Madonna's looks. Trust was just a condom and was just as abused. I didn't worry about who to trust because there really was no one, thus less grief and heartache.
Is this a sign? Should I go back?
What do you think?
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I'm having trust issues. I can't seem to trust anyone anymore. (Except hubby, of course) It seems that the people I trust, respect and protect are the same people that betray me - big time. "Why don't you kill me baby? While you smile like a friend..." That line from Pulp's "Like a friend" is sooo true right now. I'm not a big fan of betrayal.
***
See, here's my problem: When I trust someone, I trust them completely, as trust is something that you have to give completely without asking for anything in return. I know that by giving that trust, it's not without taking to account the risks that could happen. I've braced myself for that moment of betrayal.
I at least deserve some form of consideration, right? If you're going to break that trust, might as well be upfront about it and just slap my face with it. But that's too much to ask for. The human mind and the emotions that go with it just can't make that happen.
Maybe I'm really expecting too much. Afterall, what is trust but something that is to be thrown away anyway.
***
Ironic that I now look back at my showbiz career and appreciate it. At least when they wrote garbage about me in the tabloids, I can always go on a talk show and explain myself. Whatever they thought about me can be changed. Reputations and Credibility was as changing as Madonna's looks. Trust was just a condom and was just as abused. I didn't worry about who to trust because there really was no one, thus less grief and heartache.
Is this a sign? Should I go back?
What do you think?
